"What Lies Behind Us, & What Lies Before Us Are Tiny Matters Compared to What Lies Within Us"

Dear Fellow Bloggers,

I'm assuming it's the last week of school for those in High School right now-and I'm pretty sure at least one of your teachers have given you the typical "make good choices. stay safe. have a fun summer. it's been nice having you in my class" speach. Am I right? Well if not, we all know what speach they're talking about when in reality they are trying to say "I'm free of you for three months. Leave now." Yup. You know it's true.

Well since tomorrow is my last day of finals, and I'll be counting down the hours until summer: I decided to make a promise to myself this summer. And that promise consists of going out of my confort zone. Here is the beginning of my summer checklist:

• Learn how to wakeboard
• Go to the gym daily (no I'm not fat if you're wondering lol)
• Meet a boy that treats me right
• Meet new people
• Kiss a stranger
• Update to a new wordrobe unlike mine now
• Turn off my cell phone at least once a week and relax outside
• Join a camp
• Learn how to surf
• Start over a new leaf and be a new me

So that's really all I can think of at the moment, but if you're reading this I encourage you to make a list of a Summer "To Do" List and see how much you can accomplish!! That's what I'm going to do because I want to make a change. I will make a change to be someone different. I will change to be a better person. (:

<3 Sweetly Broken

"To Fear Love is to Fear Life"

To begin my blogging I'd like everyone to know that i'm not one of those "oh theres a hot guy! i think i'm in love with him!" type of girl. I hardly fall in love-in face i dont think i've ever fallen in love: thus presenting my delema.

I'm deathly afraid of love because those before me didnt properly introduce me to the definition of love. I've never been exposed to the feeling of overwhelming passion, the butterflies-in-the-pit-of-my-stomach-oh-my-god-im-gonna-pass-out, feeling when i've talked to a guy. I've dated in the past-kissed guys and thought i'd really cared for them; however there is something holding me back...

I read about love stories all day and write (yes I write books) about it all night. I can imagine and paint an image of what this undying love feels like, looks like, even tastes like-yet i've never experianced it and am beginning to fear if I ever will.  So what if? What if, while my friends date the boys of their dreams and shed nonstop smiles all day long, I'm stuck trying to be happy for them when I truly want to do nothing but turn and walk away.

I want to feel like they do. I want to experiance the ups and downs, pain and happiness, the tenderness a boy whispers my name, a boy who knows how to make me smile-who understands when all i need him to do is hug me as tight as he can and never let me go.

I'm tired of feeling this way and every time I come close to love people always leave.

If you could give advice-I'd truly love it.

Thanks a bunch!

<3 Sweetly broken